Quiet
Chapter 146:Quiet
Just as my lips were about to touch her delicate red lips...
"I want to go to the garden."With that, she pushed me away.Then the red face came out of the small garden.Sit in the rocking chair above.
Looking at her sitting in the rocking chair of the rattan, my eyes did not leave her for almost a moment, not because I felt upset because of the attempted kiss just now, but that this woman, even if I did nothing with her, just stay with her, I would feel comfortable.
It’s that natural comfort.
This feeling, always so familiar, seems to have been so comfortable to stay in general.
I followed out.However, did not sit in the same rocking chair with her, because although the swing rocking chair is two people sitting, but because of the small space, can only barely tuck into two people, will be very crowded, so the body will inevitably have contact.
To avoid embarrassment, so, I sat on the open-air couch not far away.Just look at her, look at her quietly.
The breeze gently brushed the noodles, and at this moment, I felt the refreshment from nature.
I also felt the smell coming from her direction.
I sat quietly on the sofa, closed my eyes, and quietly felt this kind of companionship a little away.
This feeling is not at all worse than the distance that is directly in my arms, on the contrary, it seems even more wonderful.
Just when I was relaxed, my eyes closed, and my full attention came from the breath on her, my eyes seemed to be beginning to flash some strange shots.
These shots are like the way when the TV signal is unstable, flashing and blurry.
In the picture, it looks like a black and white photo.
In the photo, you can vaguely see some pictures, but the picture is scattered, and it is not clear what kind of scene or who it is.
These photos, in the mind of the endless flashing, change quickly.I wanted to try to capture, but it was hard to capture the picture.
However, the photo seems to be blinking more and more slowly, and I can see more and more clearly.
In the photo, it appears to be personal.Or is it...ancient?
When I tried to calm myself down and try to see the photos clearly, I found that these were two photos that flashed in turn, and the more flashed, the clearer they were.
See only...
One of them is a woman with long hair, silk and satin, smiling like a flower, and a fairy-looking woman.The girl's face was exactly the same as the bright, especially the slight smile, which was exactly the bright look I knew.
This photo is black and white.So it looks like a world apart.
All this seems so familiar, so kind, and so far away.
And the second picture, is a man, tall and burly, also in old clothes, with long hair, handsome and proud, this face... is this not my own?
When I looked at the second picture, everyone was shocked.
I can understand the look of the beautiful costume, but see my own photos, put it with her...black and white.
My heart was so cold.
I held my breath and looked closely.I found this to be a beautiful photo of me and me.
Standing on a stone bridge, the breeze blows in front of the ordinary, hair flowing.And I, standing by a river, behind me was the woods, walking forward with joy, as if there were something in front that excited and happy for me.
Just when I looked at the photos carefully, I found that the two photos had gradually merged together and connected.
It turned out that I was running to this stone arch bridge, and wanted to run to the bright side, and the bright, facing the breeze, was waiting for my arrival.
Seeing these two pictures fused together, my heart suddenly beat.That feeling of heart, that’s how it’s played out again in my heart.
At this time, my heart is an unspeakable joy.
This photo has become dynamic.
I saw that I was really happy to go to the stone arch bridge, ready to embrace the beauty of the bridge, just in the moment I ran to the bridge...
I suddenly felt that my feet were suddenly empty, as if I had stepped on the stairs, and the whole person lost its balance.The body flew in the air.
“Ah!”A scream sounded, throbbing.It was a scream of fear and pain.
Just after this scream, I saw a black in front of me and saw nothing.
I want to work hard to restore the picture just in my mind, so see what is the next scene?Why did you have to hold it together when an accident occurred?
I don't know.I just know that I want to continue.
But no matter how hard I try, it doesn’t help.I couldn’t see any more pictures, I could only feel the darkness behind my eyes closed and the faint faintness of my eyelids.
Suspension.After I had worked hard but really couldn’t see anything, I opened my eyes helplessly.
At this moment, I saw that she was leaning on the rattan chair and seemed to be in a small trance.
Looking at her back, I was able to stand up again.
Seeing her close is enough.
“Thank you!”Just when I was relieved, she said this again while she was still around.
“Thank you for what.There is no need to thank each other.”
"No, I need, without you, there would be no me now."Unexpectedly, half leaning on the rattan chair, the bright spot did not fall asleep, but seemed to be thinking a thousand thoughts, as if remembering the old things.
"If you think it's right to say it now, tell me, if you think it's not time yet, I'll be willing to wait until you want to say it."I don’t seem to be in such a hurry to know everything now.
As long as you see her well now, that’s enough.No matter what the past life, as long as it is enough to take care of this life.
“Actually, I want to tell you.But... a lot of things, I’d rather you never know.So, I hope you understand.But there’s one thing I want you to know, and that is, I want you to know that I’m grateful for you, endlessly grateful.Whatever I do for you, I will.I don't want you to feel guilty for what I've done or given you."
She listened to the pain in my heart.
She must have been hurt deep before she could say this heart-cutting thing.
"I don't know why, but I don't want you to wrong yourself for me and sacrifice yourself for me."I want you to protect yourself and take care of yourself.What I want is you well.As long as you are okay.Do you understand?"
"You have to understand that my only purpose is to be good."
Having said all that, her body still moved.Just rely on it.But I could feel her heart ache not far away.
I want to go over and hug her, I want to warm her up.
I was afraid to disturb her.I’m even so far that I can’t bear to hurt her half.
“Hold me.”When I hesitated, she offered to hold her.
I thought I was wrong, and I thought I was wrong.
I immediately raised my spirit and walked over.When I walked over, I saw that at this time she was leaning on the swing rattan chair, and she was already in tears...
Seeing the appearance of her with the pear blossoms, I was very distressed, and immediately sat beside her, holding this delicate woman in my arms.
“Don’t be afraid, there’s me.You have me at any time.”I held her body tightly in my arms.Give her a lot of security.
And she squirmed her head slightly and rubbed tears on my shoulder.
Although she was a spirit, her tears were wiped on my shoulder.
Seeing the calmness of the usual calm now like a little girl, a weak woman, nest in my arms, I can't help but love her.
I did not speak again, this time, for women, companionship and hugging is already the best comfort.
Without you, I don’t know how to keep going.I will not leave a lover, I will definitely set foot on the bridge without hesitation, and I will never see you in the world.However, I can't bear it, I don't want all the memories, so I left selfishly.Stay and wait for you to come back to life.”
She said that her words were getting slower, as if she were aggrieved little girl.I hear my heart is broken.
“Though I don’t remember anything.But at the moment, I am completely yours.No matter what bad things I have done in my past life, or because of something that has hurt you, I will be yours without reservation now.Willing to pay for you.”
At this point, I realized that I had learned to talk.
At first, when I was with Ann, I never said anything like that.But now from the heart to say, but no longer feel flesh, but feel the heartache.
I felt that the original memory was not good.The original memory hurts.So she refused to say it.One person carrying.
It seems that I hurt her a lot and made her pay a lot.
“When is the moon next month?Ask the wine to the sky.I don’t know what year it is tonight.I want to ride the wind back, and I am afraid of Qionglou Yuyu, and it is not cold in high places.Dance to find out the shadow, what is it like in people?”
She actually leaned on my shoulder and sang the word, but the tune was not the kind we KTV sang, but with the thick ancient rhyme, making people feel as if they had suddenly crossed into the ancient.
“Cut the ge, low-fangled, sleepless.There should be no hate, what is the length of the other time round?People have sorrow and joy, the moon has a clear circle, this matter is difficult.I wish people would be long-lasting.”
After finishing this sentence, she looked up slightly and looked at the sky.
Now although it is morning and can not see the moon, she still appreciates every part of the sky, and seems to be imagining the beauty of the moon hanging in the sky.
I don't know why, I heard her low, my heart, can't say empty...
It was as if something had been hollowed out, so empty that I would like to find something to fill it now.
What kind of demon you are, it is so quiet, it has hollowed out my heart.
You know what it’s like to be empty.
You know what it’s like to lose your heart.
The feeling of being empty is like an ant scratching their hearts, which is extremely unbearable.
“Speaklessly on the West Building.
The Moon Hook
Lonely syrup
Deep House Locked Autumn
Cut constantly confused.
It's off.
Don’t feel the best in your heart.
Cut constantly confused.
It's off.
Don't feel the best in your heart."
At this point, she began to read softly.
Hearing these words, I can already read the loneliness, loneliness, and expectation within her.
Wasn’t she and I in the first place?
In the face of the bright tears in my arms, I felt as if my heart was being burned in a different place.So, I couldn’t help but hold this woman tightly in my arms.Then, clasped her shoulders tightly, wishing to rub her directly into my muscles and blend in with me.
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