I hate my reason at this time.

When my parents were sad, I was uncovering their scars, and I could clearly feel guilt, but under the guilt and self-blame, there was an instinctive observation and thinking that could not be stopped.

The two things they said were serious.Whether it is in the face of relatives and friends to say where my grandfather's deposit is going, or whether I have called the police several times, it is a big problem to report the robbery murderer.Anyone who knows these two things will notice my abnormality.

However, if this is the case, it is not enough to have the point of needing parents to move and break off relations with relatives.

Others are aware of the abnormality, and at most it is to treat this matter as the chatty capital after tea.As long as it is a normal person in the brain, it is impossible to think in the extreme direction of a certain ability of the people around you.

Like the common trust relationship in life, if you know someone who is a teacher, when the child goes to school, ask him to help introduce the school, it is a normal move.But no one will be entangled because of this kind of thing, and no one will resign to change jobs because of this kind of request.

My parents always mentioned the uncle I could not remember.

They have also talked about the little things at home before.When my sister and I grew up, I was always curious about my family, my parents, and my ancestors.

In my memory, the inheritance dispute after the death of the elderly is the reason why they have mentioned many ruptures, but they have never talked about the specific process of this matter, and they will never take the initiative to recall their parents and brothers and sisters.

This avoidance attitude has always made me think that this is their sadness.I even thought that the cause of the inheritance dispute might not be in their brothers and sisters, but in them.Although their usual performance and the words and deeds of our brothers and sisters are decent, or that is, the appearance of ordinary honest people, never cares about money.I eventually attributed it all to their character and the unpleasantness of the beginning.

Until now, I thought that the cause of the problem may be in my ability.It was then that their whole recollection and narrative confirmed my conjecture—my ability, a mean-spirited relative, led them to break off their relationship with their family.

What makes me suspect is that the despicable relative, I have no memory at all, and they have never mentioned it before.

This should not be a hiding and hiding point.

But their atmosphere is real.

This truth does not paint the equal sign of value in the two things they say.

There should be another thing, and that is the real reason for them to break off their relationship with their families.Not only the uncle's entanglement, but also not only the uncle's unobtrusive mouth in front of my child, or directly against my child's rude behavior...

I looked at my mom and dad and didn’t know how to ask myself this question.

Nor did they continue to say any plans.

"That's it.We moved, changed phones, changed jobs, and didn’t talk to the people at home.We started again... your mother was pregnant and gave birth to your sister.I didn’t say that to home either.Those colleagues in the new unit, the newly acquaintances, do not know the situation in our home.You haven’t said that word again.We’re all relieved...nor are we all completely relieved...bigger, you have a cell phone, and you’re on vacation at home, and there’s no one at home... We’ve been worried for a long time.After that, people seem to have grown up all at once.After not getting sick, it is as if you have grown up and understand, and many times it is quiet, not like a little boy, not like a child.When your sister is born, you will take good care of your sister.Your sister...” Dad paused.

My mother looked at me and said, “Actually, we didn’t want to have another one.”You said... just one day, you suddenly said, you want a sister.We are all scared.It's not you who's afraid to say this, it's the other... you... you said it once, we didn't agree, we didn't answer, you didn't mention it.We watched you play alone all day, and did not play with the children outside... We did not care for you at that time, the TV did not let you watch, nor did we let you play outside, afraid of what you heard, what you saw, and knew someone... Look at your kind, you said you wanted your younger brother and sister...”

"Your aunt has a brother, and you used to play with him, and your uncle's little sister."Dad added.

I didn’t expect to hear such memories.

My sister was born because of what I asked for.

“We’re going to buy you a dog and think you’re going to be happy.”When I was pregnant with your sister, you touched my stomach, and I touched the dog's stomach, and sat on the belly to listen to the sound, and took the dog's heartbeat as the sound of a puppy."

The two of them remembered a happy and loving smile.

I have no way to relax.

They said so, leaving my doubts completely stuck in their throats.

“Your sister said that when you were in the cradle, you would squat beside her and take her little hand.If she is older, you will make her a pony and let her ride on you.Your father is holding you in the back.Go outside and play, you often have to look at your sister.Play the slides in the park, and the previous kind of ocean balls.I'm sitting next to your sister, and if you play for a while, you're going to come back and see us."

Such lovely memories go on for a while.

They both seemed tired and stopped.

Dad looked at the window and said, “It’s dark.”Are you hungry?Let's go eat out."

My mother stood up and asked, “What do you eat?”

“Go find a restaurant to eat.What do you want to eat?”

"I don't know.There's someone in the hotel."

They both looked at me, as if waiting for my answer.

At the end of the day, they didn’t ask me what I’ve been through this year.

I looked at them and didn’t move.

The relaxed atmosphere in the room slowly solidified.

“Lynch, you’re not that kid anymore.Do not have pressure.We did that, saying it was for you, but it was also for ourselves."Dad patted me on the shoulder and said solemnly, "You are now grown up, you are working, you take care of us, take care of your sister."But what you want to do, do it, don’t worry so much.Your mother and father are retired, but they are not old enough to walk, and you don't have to bear so much.This year...”

He stopped, stared at me for a moment, and lowered his eyes again, as if thinking, and half-sin and half-way continued: "You and your mother have long thought of it."You may have... happened again this year.You may have met when you were in college... at that time you lived in school, and we didn’t know some things.We are sure you will handle it.What you do...including two things you did when you were a kid, not bad.You were too young then.You are old now."

Dad patted me on the shoulder again, “Okay, don’t think so much.Food or need to eat.Let's go eat first."

“Dad.”I called him and his mother, "Mom... I have one last question."

“Ask it.”Dad is generous.

“Have you found the door since then?”I asked, “Has anyone come to me and told me about my business?”