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Chapter 382:She Can't Forgive Herself

At the funeral of Fang Yifu, Su Luoyan saw Mei Xiaoyuan.Mei Xiaoyuan has always stood in the outside place, and she will still feel very sad after hearing that the situation has occurred.Even if two people don't have a chance to come together, but the sweetness of the past will still make people can't help but remember.No one around knows her, and she doesn’t need to show up in everyone’s vision, but the bottom of her heart is so natural.

She didn’t know what Suloyan had regained her memory, but she believed that Suloyan must now know everything that had happened before.However, she did not set her eyes on Su Luoyan, the man she once loved could be like a stranger, but now it was yin and yang, and the time was so hurried.

When Su Luoyan turned around, she saw Mei Xiaoyuan standing there, she was still so elegant and elegant, but there were some sad things between her eyebrows.Su Luoyan did not know why Mei Xiaoyuan appeared here, but she actually appeared, there must be a reason.

She walked toward Mei Xiaoyuan, and neither of them spoke, just quietly looking at each other.Between the two of them, there was the entanglement of two men.If there is no Su Luoyan, Mei Xiaoyuan should not miss too far with Fang Yishi, if there is no Mei Xiaoyuan's existence, Su Luoyan should go further with the cold cloud.This is fate, and once many things are reversed, they cannot be changed.

"You're here too."Su Luoyan stood next to Mei Xiaoyuan, his eyes still staring at the tombstone that had just been raised, and her husband was lying in it, even if it was just a husband and wife in name, but the man had a fate with her on earth.What happened recently, she was too late to think, just felt that there was too much congestion in her heart.

“It was an accident, wasn’t it?”Meg is also light.Her eyes fell on the tombstone, and the three words on it were familiar to her.Even if you do not love, when you see those three words again, the shock and surprise of your heart are still there.She thought again, what is changing this fate, is God playing tricks, or are people too naive to understand God's arrangements?

"Nothing surprising, I think you know the dust.He will be glad to come.”Silo said with an eleft.After all these things, she’s going to leave too.No matter what kind of entanglement between these people, she now just wants to let go, a person with the child away from the hustle and bustle.

"Of course, when I met him, you didn't know where it was, but you didn't know if I mentioned his first love to you."Mei Xiaoyuan smiled with a meaningful smile to look at Suloyan.Even if she is destined to be a loser, she must maintain the pride of her heart.

"You know, you gave the dust a watch, he has been wearing it in his hand."Surely that should be important to him."Su Luoyan did not pay attention to the arrogance in Mei Xiaoyuan's tone, she just made a very gentle statement of such a fact.Of course, she did not tell Mei Xiaoyuan that her fate with Fang Yiliu was because of the appearance of the watch.

There was a hint of consternation in Mei Xiaoyuan's face, not long ago, Fang Yishi denied everything, he said that he fell in love with her just play, he said he did not love her at all.At that time, Mei Xiaoyuan was very depressed and even very wronged.Even if you are not loved now, you can't deny the previous love.

But this man easily denied everything, she hated this man who had deceived his feelings in the first place, and believed in her stupidity, and then came back from a thousand miles to continue this fate.So, after saying such a disconcerting word from Fang Yishi, she began to erase the traces of this man's arrival in memory.

She did not think that this man had always cherished the watch he had given him, she did not think that this man was actually wrong.What was so beautiful before can not be erased by a word of denial.She clearly remembered the blaze eyes of Fang Yi, but why did she remember nothing at that time?

Are people like this, often denying themselves and often rejecting others?At least at this time Su Luoyan said this sentence, Mei Xiaoyuan was shocked.She looked carefully at the tomb where the newly erected tomb was written with his name.

“Actually, the dust has always loved you.It’s just that he doesn’t want to admit it.I had nothing to do with him, just to have a nominal marriage.If you come back a little earlier, maybe the person who walks with him happily is you.I'm sorry I hurt him."

Su Luoyan was still so calm, for what happened before, she did not want to express her mood with too much language.All had reached this point, and there was nothing left of her heart except guilt.If everything can be done again, she thinks that if she knows that Mei Xiaoyuan will come back one day, then he will insist on waiting.

She was silent, and it was the most shocking word she had ever heard.Although these words did not come from the dust, she was convinced.If he really does not love himself, then there is no need to cherish a watch that is not expensive, if he really does not love himself, there is no need to go around to ask his news.

In the past, she would complain, strange and embarrassed that she did not wait for herself, and even married and had children with ordinary women such as Su Luoyan, but now, she seems to understand this man.Everyone is afraid of the cold and eager to be warm, the square dust at that time must be cold to the extreme, he just longed to be close to a fire, but also he chose Suloyan.

As for whether he had loved Suloyan, Mei Xiaoyuan did not want to pursue this issue.It’s been so long, it doesn’t make sense to worry about it anymore.A string in the bottom of the heart was so easily plucked, to a point where it could not be added.She didn’t know what was going on, and she was in a mess at the moment.

Tears flowed from her eyes, and the tenderness of her heart was easily touched.Even if you don’t love it anymore, you’ve loved it before.

At this time, the cold clouds came to this side, when he saw Mei Xiaoyuan standing with Su Luoyan, his heart was full of worry.The woman was so horrible that she had already hurt Suloyan once, and he had said that if she had dared to go near Suloyan, he would have killed her.

"What are you doing here, leave now."The cold cloud appeared in front of Mei Xiaoyuan and drank loudly.He would not allow this woman to approach Suloyan, nor would he allow her to use any more tricks to hurt Suloyan.Mei Xiaoyuan slowly put her eyes on the cold cloud, this excellent man, now for Su Luoyan, has pointed the finger at her.

“Don’t worry, I won’t hurt Loyalty.I just said goodbye to her, and in a few days I'll be back in England, and I'll never disturb your life again."She reached out and wiped the tears in her eyes, and then a dismal smile appeared on her face.She didn’t want to say anything more about leaving.

If she did not return from England, then she still has a beautiful memory, but she came back, she did a lot of stupid things, hurt Su Luoyan, but also hurt the cold Yunhao.Now, the man she once loved the most has been sleeping in the ground, so should she be satisfied to go?

“Don’t say that, we’ve always been good friends, haven’t we?”You're not doing anything that hurt us, and you don't think that way."Su Luoyan reached out and held Mei Xiaoyuan's hand, even if there were so many misunderstandings between the two people, but at this time, she did not want to give up such a friendship easily.

Thank you for saying that, but I have never considered you a friend.I’m afraid the two of us won’t be friends either.The two most important men in my life have been robbed of you.I will not forgive you, nor will I bless you."Mei Xiaoyuan shook Su Luoyan's hand, and her face was still a faint smile.

Su Luo Yan was there, for a time did not know what to say, such a look of Mei Xiaoyuan, people feel distressed when they see it.She knew that if it was not for her appearance, then Mei Xiaoyuan could have been with Fang Yishi.She is not a fool, she has long seen, Mei Xiaoyuan is very interesting to the cold cloud, at least Shen Yuqing's side, has acquiesced to the existence of Mei Xiaoyuan.

How uninteresting she should be, living in front of Mei Xiaoyuan, blocking this woman from pursuing happiness.Su Luoyan's heart was somewhat guilty, she felt that she should have told Mei Xiaoyuan earlier that she was about to leave.She was ready to deliver the cold cloud into her hands.

“Mom, don’t leave, okay?Whether you hate me or blame me, don’t you rush to leave, okay?”If it wasn’t for the cold clouds standing there, she would certainly have said everything she wanted in her heart.However, she was afraid that as soon as she spoke out, Cold Cloud Hao would lose her mind again.

“Leaving is my thing.I don’t like this city, and there are no people I like in this city anymore.So you don't have to leave me in a fake way."When Mei Xiaoyuan said this, she glanced at the cold cloud with her eyes, and the man did not have any interest in her words.

"Louyan, don't waste your words with this kind of person, let's go back."He reached out to take Suloyan's shoulder away, and for a domineering woman, he felt that there was no need to waste his tongue.When she heard this, her heart was full.

“Yunhao, don’t say that, okay?I am all going to leave, and I will be sad to talk to you like this.You don’t like me, but I’ve always liked you.Although I don't like Luo Yan, I still hope that the two of you have been happy together.Su Luoyan, you are not my friend, I have given you two men I like, now if you are not good to the cold cloud, I will never let you go."

Mei Xiaoyuan's face said seriously, that with a funny but shocking expression, let people only have pain in their hearts.She turned away and did not stay any longer.The back of the pain has been permeating the eyes of Suloe.However, no one knew that when she turned around, stubborn tears still slipped from the corner of her eyes.The two men she had to fall in love with now would disappear from her world forever.

“Lauyan, let’s go, don’t listen to what this crazy woman says.”You have to believe me, okay?I am the only one in my heart."Cold Yunhao took Su Luoyan's small hand and said seriously.For Mei Xiaoyuan's wrong love, he never took over, he did not know which of the woman's root was in the wrong.

If it is Lin Yuanyu fish, then it is really not necessary, at least in his opinion, this is meaningless.He will not have a little heart for a woman because of her curiosity.It will not be because Mei Xiaoyuan has made up his mother, he will look at it.He lives for himself, and his feelings are for him to control.

“Yun Hao, don’t say that, sweetheart, okay?”She is not really easy.Go back, I want to be alone here for a while."Su Luoyan looked up at the cold cloud and said softly.There was so much going on that she didn’t seem to have time to sort out her thoughts.

Fang Yi dust chose such a way of rupture to leave, so that she fell into a feeling of guilt.She had always blamed herself, and if she had not said such a bad word that day, then Fang Yidu would certainly not have made such a move.Seeing the old man, the pain in her heart had long since spread.

She did not know the things of Mei Xiaoyuan and Fang Yishu, but just now, she knew that Mei Xiaoyuan was Fang Yishi's first love, but because of her existence, the former lover also missed.She didn’t know what she was doing, so many people changed because of her.

And cold cloud, if there is no her appearance, then cold Yunhao and Su Ruolin must live very happy, such as her, is a broom star, should stay in prison to spend a lifetime.She is a Pandora of the world, and as soon as she appears, there will be bad luck there.

This is not the result she wanted.Seeing the people around her became so unhappy because of her existence, her heart was full of guilt.She didn’t ask too much, just that they didn’t change because of their existence.She has received so much wrong love, she cherishes it, but she does not have enough courage to undertake one by one.

"Well, I'll wait for you outside."Cold Yunhao said, taking off his coat and putting it on Su Luoyan’s shoulders.Seeing this thin and weak woman gaunt into the way he is now, his heart is also very sad.Wanting to endure such pain with her, but her own existence seems to be a kind of pain to her.He could only stand far away, step forward when she needed it, and then send the blessing to her.

Su Luoyan has been standing there for a long time, she rarely has a common language with Fang Yishi, even if two people are married, rarely speak.She was stubbornly immersed in her own world, excluding him.But at that time, the dust could only wander outside the door.He was very kind to her, gave her the space and time she wanted, thinking that only in this way could he arouse Su Luoyan's love for him.

However, he did not have a chance to wait for that day to come, so the beautiful vision is over.Su Luo Yan thought, it must be at that time his own indifference hurt Fang Yi dust, otherwise, a good sunny handsome boy, will not become so moody.

It seems that feelings are a terrible thing, and sometimes they turn into swords to hurt the people around them.She should not easily agree to Fang Yili, and should not use his sincerity because of his temporary kindness.Because of her selfishness, she made this man pay such a high price.

Su Luoyan could not forgive himself, carrying a human life, which made her heart pain, can no longer be covered up.If she could, she thought that all things could be repeated again, then she would choose to leave completely, rather than being close to the warmth for fear of the cold.

Dusty, I decided to leave.Thank you for giving so much love to me, and I am grateful and grateful.It hurt you, and I can never forgive myself.It’s all my fault, so leave me alone to accept this punishment.I will not marry Yun Hao, although I have always wanted to be his bride, I hope you go to the world there, must be happy.She has always loved you, and you must remember her.

After this incident, Suloyan became a lot of silence, for her silence, cold Yunhao can only accept, he knows that even if there is no love between Su Luoyan and Fang Yishi, but two people have been together for a long time, many things will change.Mao Mao followed Su Luoyan to Lin Xi, so now, Lin Xi there has become the most lively place.

He was just waiting, waiting for the day to open the knot in Suloyan's heart, and at that time, he must take her hand and give Su Luoyan and Mao a warm family.That kind of desire with the general idea, will make a person feel and happy, so when Su Luoyan to go to Shen Yuqing, he even did not notice.

For the visit of Su Luoyan, Shen Yuqing was somewhat surprised.But she was a well-cultivated person, and she politely received the arrival of Suloyan.Just that kind of politeness and alienation, always make people uncomfortable.She did not like Suloyan, this woman was carrying too many things, she was a mother, afraid that this woman would eventually hurt her son.

"Loyen, let Mao go home to live, he is cold family blood, or stay here is better."You have just experienced the pain of losing your father, so pay more attention to rest."Shen Yuqing's faint tone, seems to be a deliberate or unintentional reminder to Su Luoyan, she must remember that she is married people, even if she gave birth to a cold Yunhao child, Shen Yuqing still can not accept this woman into the cold door.

She wants to maintain the reputation of the cold family and retain the face of the cold family.Even if this is a kind of harm for cold Yunhao and Su Luoyan, she must let this thing develop at such a pace.

Su Luoyan sat there, always a faint expression, when she decided to come to Shen Yuqing, because she was ready to leave.She wants to leave this place and no longer stay with the cold clouds.Having hurt so many people, she can no longer be the executioner.

"Aunt, I understand what you said, I'm sorry, I didn't understand it before, so I brought you so much trouble."Hair is my child, no matter how much he has to do with the cold family, I will take him to his side.I hope you can understand that.”

Sullow said slowly.She had already thought about it when she came, and no matter what Shen Yuqing thought, she would not have delivered her hair to anyone.That was her most dear person in the world, and even if she was destined to suffer a lot later, she would have to suffer with that child.

"How can I?"Hairy is the blood of the cold family, and I will not allow such a thing to happen.Luo Yan, you have to think about it for me, I only have a son like Yun Hao, I am so old, I have been unable to toss.I know you have good feelings with Yun Hao, but two people together is not a problem that can be solved with good feelings."

Shen Yuqing said with a slight eyebrow.At this time, Suloyan only had to remain silent.This kind of compromise and concession, she still can not do.She can give up cold clouds and give up her love, but she can't even abandon her own flesh and blood.Whatever happens is better than losing a loved one.

"Don't worry, I'll say goodbye to you this time, and I'll leave in a few days."I won’t let the cloud find me.Maybe it was a mistake for me to know him, so don’t go on.I will take it away, please respect my choice.I will raise him up as a whole and will never fail to live up to your expectations."

Suzanne said solemnly.She didn’t mean anything funny, and she didn’t have the possibility of giving up.When she decided to go alone, she thought of all the retreats.Even if you love cold clouds again, a lot of things have passed, then it can only be old things.

“Well, since it’s your choice, I can only respect that.Also, does the cloud know about this?You know, Yun Hao, the child is too emotional."Shen Yuqing's words did not finish, she wanted to express the meaning, Su Luoyan is clear.She didn’t say anything, but she understood it from the bottom of her heart.

PS: This chapter is 6000+ words, today's update, all of which have been uploaded.You are welcome to actively discuss the plot and characters in the comment section.The next chapter is even better, so guys, look forward to it!

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